My blog needs mouth to mouth!

I get on a bit of a roll with my blog and then life decides to block my path. Rather than climb over the boulder of life, I take the opportunity to sit with my back against the sturdy surface. I reflect and ruminate on the boulder in my way. I get frustrated by it but there I sit. I have been doing this too much lately! I let my frustration with life overwhelm me to near paralysis. That funky state where you just get it done but don't do much extra.

I will get my run in but I won't add a step more than I need to. I will accomplish every task on my to-do list but I won't add an extra stop to check out the bestsellers at the bookstore. I will fold the laundry but leave the ironing to an extra spin in the dryer. 

In my ruminating, I feel a desire to unplug. Actually, I feel a desire to escape to a deserted tropical island with a fresh water supply and something to eat other than coconuts. This leads me to think that my life has become too busy and too often I let it be owned by others. And when I say owned by others I mean too much shuffling the kids to their activities, over-committing myself to projects that are not my own, saying, "Yes, I can do that" when I want to and should say, "Oh, heck no!" I need to recognize that my life is just that - My Life. It is mine to enjoy, to cherish, and to spend how I choose (in accordance with the law and what my tribe deems socially acceptable!) 😉

As I sit propped against this boulder I think about what makes me happy, what stresses me, and what I want in this beautiful gift of life. I don't want to run exactly 3 miles and tap out. I want to see what's hot on bookshelves near me. And, I want to press that steam button and go crazy with the spray starch on the wrinkles. 

Reflection can be a healthy indulgence once in a while but too much creates doubts, curiosities, and even depression. I think it's time for a climb...up and over. Let's see if I can get beyond this pause on my path and breathe some life back into the things I most enjoy.